Captains Log 5/21/15

Today is day 7 of taking these meds to be "normal" .. I feel like absolute shit today. Nauseous, tired, weak, dehydrated, in pain, you name it .. Couldn't go to work today because i guess i over did it yesterday and my body is too weak for me to even get outta bed .. I've been in and outta sleep all day and i just feel like death .. Been feeling like I'm gonna cry for the past week and i cant so i just feel down without actually crying .. I need a hug but i feel if i got one i would probably break .. Like literally fall apart .. Thinking about canceling my weekend plans because A. No transportation and B. No energy .. I need more outlets and people who are willing to attempt to understand me because right now everyone is too busy as well as i don't like feeling like I'm annoying or pestering someone when i want/need to vent .. Having to take all these medications to function like everyone else feels like crap but it's crap i have to do so taylor has a chance to actually BE normal instead of having to fight for it .. Hoping something changes for the better sooner rather than later...