Captains Log 5/20/15

Okay so .. Today is day 6 .. Didn't feel as weak or tired today although at one point i did start zoning out at work .. Like literally blanking out and forgetting what i was doing .. I actually felt okay enough to go to work which i think was good for me .. But now I'm home and I'm drained and everything hurts .. Taylor is up so i cant take anything to make me sleep just yet .. I don't feel jittery but i do think either these antidepressants don't work or I'm defective because my depression levels have gone up instead of down .. Probably why I'm on two of them .. I don't feel weepy or anything more like "why am i here" .. I just feel blah .. Tired and wanna sleep and not wake up for a long time .. Might have to trick taylor into taking a nap because i need sleep